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I accepted Jesus Christ into my life when I was in college, but didn't fully surrender to Him for another 20 years or so. While I put God back on the shelf I attempted to heal myself of past wounds and mistakes. The more I was told to rely on God, the more I stood defiant and did the exact opposite. Years of practicing this philosophy got me to suicide mode because I had used myself up. There was no joy, peace, nor laughter. I was empty. I ended up battling with God for my soul. After a very long and "messy" 4 days, I decided I couldn't live my life empty any more. After rededicating my life to Him, my soul had been renewed. For the first time in a long, long time, I felt compassion and empathy - pure joy and peace.
9 months later I became ill and collapsed at home. A combination of viral encephalitis, fibromyalgia and arthritis culminated into lack of brain and body function. For 6 years and 8 months I couldn't walk without using leg braces and crutches or an electric cart. My speech was so slurred few people could understand me. Reading and thought comprehension were near impossible. My body was in such overall agonizing pain I would vomit for days. Medically there was nothing that could be done except for pain management.
About a year before my total healing, I was woken up in the middle of the night because I felt something like "hot darts" piecing through the top of my skull. This happened at 3 different times throughout the year. In October of the following year, my brother and I were on the phone. During that conversation something incredible happened. To this day I cannot find the words to fully describe the sound of what we heard. It was like the the earth stood still for a second. The silence was deafening. A week later my speech came back, I could walk and drive and think. I was healed by the power of God (and yes, a doctor has confirmed it!).
My decision to surrender my life to Christ has been one of the most important choices I've ever made. Following Jesus, by no means has meant life hasn't been hard at times, and it surely hasn't meant that I am without mistake or failure. But it does mean that I've made a conscious decision to learn about, and to try as best as I am able, to follow His example. When I fail? God has taught me the importance about being brutally honest as I confess my shortcoming and then I start again. God's word is true and it is relevant. And when I earnestly seek Him, He heals EVERY thing that needs healing.
Today, I'm active as a Youth Club Leader and Sunday School teacher for grades 9-12, attend an ecumenical Bible Study, and am currently working to get a Unity Prayer Group formed - getting members of our community, who are homebound, to uplift our community in prayer. I am a motivational speaker and am an Advisory Board member of SAP (Student Assistance Program). Before moving to our new home, I was on the Board of Elders and the Evangelism Commission of that denomination. I enjoyed being a coordinator for an Ecumenical program that allowed the elderly and the disabled to stay in their homes as long as possible because volunteers help with daily tasks of cleaning, cooking, transportation, etc. I also loved being a hopsice volunteer and taught the "Ethics" section for a few of the volunteer training sessions.
If you have a prayer request for yourself or someone else, please feel free to click on "Contact Me" on the home page and let me know. Together we can stand firm in God's word and unleash His unending power!
In Christ,
Nancy Beahm - Owner
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